Kirsty Bosley: Trusting those politicians over the referendum? EU must be joking!

It's not my boss I have to thank for that, as sound as he is. It's the EU. Dun, dun, duuuun. Please don't turn the page, let's have a chat about this frustrating, exhausting topic. You well know that my my column is usually reserved for chats less heavy than my fears about the future of our nation, but I just couldn't avoid it this week. I've been having sleepless nights.

If this hatefully dubbed 'Brexit' actually happens, our government could, if they chose to, take that right away from us. It's the same with maternity and paternity leave and the maximum hours our bosses can make us work on a weekly basis. The post-Brexit government could decide that we can only have a week's paid annual leave, or that mums get naff all if they decide to have kids. They might not, but there'd be nothing to stop them if they did.

And I've got to tell you – I don't trust these people enough to be cool about that.

Sure, they might not change anything to do with employment law. 'Why would they?' is the question raised by the pro-leave posse, and sure, why would they? Because they might make more money out of us? I don't know. Who does?

I feel envious of those who couldn't care less about politics – who mosey through their days not worrying about such things. I wish that I didn't give a toot, but the truth is, I'm really scared about what could happen if we vote out, I'll admit it. That's not because I've got some pro-EU politician cramming their agenda down my throat and I'm gobbling it up like it's chips and I'm a Wolverhampton seagull. It's because I can't believe a word that any of them speak. They're humans, at the end of the day. And how often can you really trust them?

There are a lot of people right now, this very minute, in management roles, who look at their lives and go 'I don't really know what I'm doing'. There's a chance that you, reader, are one of them. I've done it myself, been in a position where I've thought 'How did I end up here?' Even the parents of newborns must look at their squealing babies at 3am and think 'Wow, I don't think I'm ready to take on this gigantic responsibility but now I have to because it's here and I can't run off'.

Well I reckon that many of the men and women who run our country, who make huge decisions that affect millions of people, are just as susceptible to that. They must have days where they lie in bed and feel like they've lost control of what they're doing, that they're inescapably in over their heads.

Worse still, we're led by a few proven back-trackers. They tell you that they won't hike up student loans, and then they do. They say one thing and do another. How can we trust them?

You might ask then how we can trust Europe. All I know is that the laws they've imposed have been working for me, a female full-time employee. That's all I really have to go on.

Many Union Jack-waving nationalists want Britain for the British, where there's no external influence from Europe. As though any external influence is a negative one because it's not coming from Good Old Blighty. They're the kinds of people who blindly comment on articles online, when someone with a foreign name commits a crime, blaming immigration for the issue. But I'll save that complaint for another day.

When I started writing this, I didn't do it with the intention of influencing you in any which way, but I think my thoughts on the matter are clear, and that they're worth sharing. There is one thing I'd like to try and influence you on though, and that is to be smart enough not to take the word of any one person when it comes to such a humongous life decision. I hope that you're inspired to look into things more deeply, question everything and don't take it at face value.

I'll be the first person to say that I haven't the capacity to fully appreciate every aspect of the argument. It's been near impossible to do so when each side has been blighted by absolute nonsense, speculation and scaremongering. I'm sick of the sight of Boris Johnson's big blonde head, if I have to hear David Cameron's voice one more time I'll pull my own ears off and Nigel Farage's views have historically made me ill. I just can't take it any more, but I have to, because these are the kinds of people we're relying on to sort out the fall-out from this referendum, either way.

Annoying blokes aside, this entire thing is confusing, and we must not feel embarrassed for not understanding everything about it, or let that hinder us from engaging. The lingo, complex pseudo-explanations and back-and-forth is designed to keep us feeling unsure – it's down to us to find out what's happening on our level. It might be hard work, but we owe it to ourselves.

What we do know, and what is a universal truth, is that no one, not even those in super high powered political jobs, know for sure what will happen if we vote leave on June 23. No matter what either side tells you, on TV, in newspapers or in leaflets stuffed through your letterbox, no one can make steadfast promises. Heck, even if they could, they'd likely backtrack on them anyway. Weirder things have happened.

What I think we can be sure of is that leaving won't mean that our NHS will be magically repaired, or that the 'bloody immigrants coming over here taking all our jobs' will be made to leave. We won't suddenly live in a blissful country where we all start singing the national anthem at intervals while flying the flag proudly while we flourish and count our money.

And we know that nothing will happen overnight either, either way. The government will have two years to scrabble around to put things in place in time for our departure from the EU.

So do your research, have discussions, read as much as you can and, for God's sake, whatever you do: please vote. It matters more than ever.